KokoPuffChan

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hello dear by KokoPuffChan, literature

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hello dear

hello dear, it's been three goddamn weeks are you ever going to reply to me? i call out but you're not listening why won't you answer me and where is your heart you give it away so easily only to find that it's been neglected that it's been broken to bits you are a stupid fool but, you, you are not alone you are loved, you are strong stay beautiful and stay forever don't leave because you are beautiful whether or not you listen to me hello dear, i'm always with you no matter what they say and can you even really remember the last time you were "okay"? don't swim in the sea of dreams don't fall prey to the spider in her we

the rough draft of collapse by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the rough draft of collapse

so the wordless poet returned i always thought she was beautiful was she beautiful? questioning all you believe in for that reason to prove somebody else wrong. twisted sycamores and the painful memories you loved to mull over how they have become worthless to you how your love powered you and how it died so similarly; now where have you gone? you realize along the way that you are different than you always thought you deceived yourself, you were ugly, you were awful and dry of tears and on the outside a goddamn shell you are nothing you are everything tears fall into a paper cup the bottom falls out you are nothing you are e

the army boy by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the army boy

i met him at the airport. he was an army boy and i didn't know what any of the markings on his uniform meant except his name. he was one of the clean-shaven, baby-faced boys from the war who didn't look like he was a father and i guess i didn't look like i was a driver because he looked straight through me and when i said, "hello, lieutenant," he said "hello" and looked around like he was lost. i told him i was who he was looking for and he shook his head but he gave me his hand and let me lead him. the taxi was a dingy yellow and the seats were cracked like a million businessmen who were just that -- busy -- had sat on them one too ma

the worldess poet by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the worldess poet

She hated them; the unjustified hatred, the unreasonable kind of hate where you hate something ridiculous and then you are ridiculous but she hated them in all her ridiculousness and so she burned them and watched their petals fall away as she stared at the withered and charred bouquet lying in the garbage she felt a pang of sorrow and she realized she was ridiculous her folder of poems had been barren for months and then the doctor told her she had a womb which mirrored this condition and it was a cruel sort of irony and that was the day she got the bouquet and she couldn't bear to read the condolence cards because t

poetic silence by KokoPuffChan, literature

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poetic silence

when you get older they say you get "louder" in a sense; you make noises like a sigh when you stand up or a groan when you bend over but she was different, she got quieter, she lost all her words she spoke in soul-filled glances; no, her words were traced on the spines of books read again and again she liked the balcony because it was the same sort of infinite quiet that surrounded herself, except the noises of quiet, like droplets and plants reaching towards the sunlight the drops thought of striking a piano's key, the elegant and smooth white ivory with rounded edges and you held it in your hand like a tooth of some grea

love alone by KokoPuffChan, literature

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love alone

do you dream of cakes or flowers, or spend hours wondering if you did the right thing is the girl on your mind; do you love her, do you care have you lost her or is she still there? are you plagued by shadows or filled with light; are you violently shaking the sea or do you know you will be saved are you scared of the dark, what will become of you, is she okay or did she break? do you know whether you're asleep when you're dreaming of an angel girl you let free and can you see her glorious wings or does she carry those other things?

three by KokoPuffChan, literature

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three

i wrote a poem today on a sticky-note and i kind of had the impression i was beautiful and i know i am falling to pieces because that sort of thing is hard to just ignore and i asked you once and then before if i disappeared for weeks upon weeks you wouldn't worry because i am the speck and you are everything i also remember a conver- sation we had where all my poetry was sobbing quietly into a megaphone, a quiet cry for help everyone could hear and it is true it is and i don't write it any more because i am ridiculous and i don't need help and i don't want you to realize that every poem i've written so far is abou

the most important things by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the most important things

i always had to underestimate my grandmother she always came to my room and she told me bedside stories every night without fail i took her for granted because sometimes my grandma forgot and she always told me those same old tired stories every day then my grandma forgot my name but she still came in my room every night without fail and she called me by my mom's name and told me the same tired old stories she had always told me and then my grandma died and no one came in my room or told me stories any more because i was too old for them then i got married and had twins baby girls, and every night i came in their rooms an

dedication by KokoPuffChan, literature

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dedication

i dedicate this one to the girl with the stars in her eyes pointed daggers towards the soles of her shoes because i promised her she'd be on page one because her writing was so beautiful and to the boy who never knew what he wanted, god i hope he's happy, this is for him too because i promised him he'd be listed right under my family, but i changed my mind and i left them out. this one is for the boy the boy i didn't get, and didn't deserve and didn't really love anyways, because he changed me for the better, and i would say thank you but he would laugh. this is for the girl who kissed me for the first time, becau

you ,dear by KokoPuffChan, literature

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you ,dear

you always spend so much time thinking out loud, saying "things shouldn't be the way that they are." but you don't spend any time changing anything is your idea of life really to let things happen and stay sunny and happy until sunny and happy becomes boring and never take asingleriskinyourwholelife because you're so scared to say "i love you" or take the chance to actually mean it that i get so left behind it's miserable being here in your shadow. especially because i keep forgetting where exactly my heart is or maybe i never knew in the first place but you're still not making it any easier on me.' so stop guarding you

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hello dear by KokoPuffChan, literature

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hello dear

the rough draft of collapse by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the rough draft of collapse

the army boy by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the army boy

the worldess poet by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the worldess poet

poetic silence by KokoPuffChan, literature

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poetic silence

love alone by KokoPuffChan, literature

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love alone

three by KokoPuffChan, literature

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three

the most important things by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the most important things

dedication by KokoPuffChan, literature

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dedication

you ,dear by KokoPuffChan, literature

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you ,dear

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Echoes of Penance by LanternGothique, literature

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Echoes of Penance

Stan[d]ing H[ear Heart], Blood up to my knees. My fiberglass teeth burrowed Into walls of plaster and fingernails, And although I cannot speak, My stethoscope eyes swear nothing Has ever sounded more mournful. And I am sorry, For six-year-old hands groping messily At your thin beating muscles, And the tears that mixed with blood Because my small body was breaking Where no one could see. And you leaked out, Into musty blankets that reeked of alcohol So I wrapped you up and buried you in regret Because I thought loving would be Like riding a bicycle And one day we would escape. But these bruises Have stained my skin with se

labor pains by worldsendinwhispers, literature

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labor pains

my hand wound round yours linking us, a parasitic fetus grasping blindly at a translucent future shifted and sighed lukewarm promises to the virgin crook of my neck, and your smooth palm cradled the small of my back so expertly so practiced those sweetly synthesized syllables birthing cataracts behind my olive eyes said you'd never let me fall but you weren't even waiting standing strong under the efflorescence of my shadow to catch these burned bones in the first fucking place the scissors tremble in my fingers like a weathervane kissing tornados the telephone wire tendons spun through my limbs won't surrender you,

Coronary Heart Disease by bshuffett, literature

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Coronary Heart Disease

I would tell you that you broke my heart, but the heart is a muscle, which cannot break. I see it tear through the skin, and know that I am bleeding to death inside. I would tell you that I love you, but much stronger is hatred, which consumes everything within. I feel it so overwhelmingly, and I know that love will be the death of me. -Brian Shuffett July 4th, 2010

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the rough draft of collapse by KokoPuffChan, literature

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the rough draft of collapse

KokoPuffChan

About KokoPuffChan

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Artist // Literature

July 10
United States
Deviant for 14 years
ohmylies.tumblr.com
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_{i'm ko.
i'm not a writer, but i like to write.
i'd like to write a book one day.

i'm emotional and sometimes i drown in my own words. or heart. or blood. it depends. but i drown and fall and break and explode all the time; don't be friends with me if you can't handle it.

you should know that i don't always comment when i fave, but i try to.
you should also know that if you watch me and you fave a lot of my work, i won't thank you for every fave.
believe me, though, i appreciate all the feedback i get. i will always respond to your comments and i always appreciate the favorites.}

Current Residence: texas.
Favourite genre of music: alternative.
Favourite style of art: manga/anime, poetry
Operating System: windowsxp
MP3 player of choice: itouch
Skin of choice: frost css
Favourite cartoon character: allen walker

Favourite Visual Artist

i love deviants.

Favourite Movies

i don't know..

Favourite Writers

e.e. cummings

Favourite Gaming Platform

NintendoDS

Tools of the Trade

pencil, paper, and microsoft word

Other Interests

drawing, photography. writing.

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KokoPuffChan

Apr 10, 2011

i find solace

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in you. and this. don't get me wrong, this account is still abandoned. "You cannot teach what you do not know." where, oh where have i gone? Lemony-Lyme (https://www.deviantart.com/lemony-lyme) : Where is my favorite poet? KokoPuffChan (https://www.deviantart.com/kokopuffchan) : In a book somewhere? Lemony-Lyme (https://www.deviantart.com/lemony-lyme) : Is that where you're hiding nowadays?

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KokoPuffChan

Oct 5, 2010

leaving for a while [longer]

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i think i will abandon this account i already have but i think i'll permanently switch to ohmystarrylies (https://www.deviantart.com/ohmystarrylies) i'm going to start uploading my poetry onto there and not make my profile so anime-themed because i just neglect this account... i'll transfer my watchlist over as i can please watch me if you love me my writing .... the world? /shot/ <3

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KokoPuffChan

Aug 8, 2010

+DLD+

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oh no, you can't be serious. i logged on today to a bunch of messages, and found out that a while ago [yeah, i was a bit late because i've been busy over at ohmystarrylies (https://www.deviantart.com/ohmystarrylies)], i got a Daily Lit Deviation! it's so crazy. here's the article: http://news.deviantart.com/article/124228/ here's the poem: http://kokopuffchan.deviantart.com/art/you-dear-172243187 i feel so honored. especially getting one on that piece. rest assured, i am working out of my writer's block. i submitted a piece today. when i submit things, it makes me feel good. because i feel like i've been abandoning this account [and honestly, i have]. sometimes i submit th

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bleedingcherrytrees

Sep 12, 2010

_{hey this is wastedxxwishes with a new account. if you want to keep watching my work, please watch this account! thanks <3}

Suzu-Chan007

Aug 30, 2010

Roses are red. Pepsi is blue. Your crazy as hell thats why I miss being with you. Your my buddie, my kick butt friend. I'll love you till the very end. Send this to all your friends, and see how many you get back. If you get 5 back, You are a truefriend

saphira3479

Aug 21, 2010

FRIENDSHIP WEEK~♥♥~
Send this to at least 15 people you love
including me if you care 4 me! *Let's see how many hearts you get!*
Please continue sending your own love to those you care for.
FAKE FRIENDS: Will ignore it ♥♥ But you know I love you